Greetings! I have risen out of the wilderness and returned to my “promised land!”
I am filled with Thankfulness, Joy, Praises, and my heart is filled with Love.
Very soon after I arrived back in California I spoke to one of my dear friends here who reminded me Ramadan was beginning the next day. Ramadan is a 30 day fasting time in Islam from sun up to sun down – nothing by mouth. Not food or water & in this 30 days you pray and read the Quran. The WHOLE Quran. Trust me it is not a small undertaking. Once the sun goes down you break your fast with family and very often friends. When I was practicing Islam, of course I always participated and it was always a revealing time for my spirit and wonderful cleanse for my body. But, since called into my walk with my BFF, Jesus I had stopped doing these fast with my friends and unfortunately stopped fasting almost altogether. I hadn’t even realized it really until she mentioned Ramadan was to begin. In that moment the Holy Spirit tapped me too, bringing to the front of my mind how I haven’t fasted in a really long time and reminding me ” Fasting should be a part of your worship & time with God. I have sent her your way. You should kick off your return home to Cali with fasting, prayer, and some quality time with God, Jesus, and Me.” This of course brought a slew of emotions and thoughts of how I have Not been spending quality time them even when I heard them knocking at my door. And how I have not been taking very good care of me either. Before we ended our conversation I told my friend, “ya know I am going to fast too…don’t think I can do sun up to sun down but, I will pray about it and ask God what He wants me to do.” A rush of Joy washed over me with even the thought of what I was about to begin. While thinking about how I used to be so committed to doing Ramadan His Spirit spoke to my spirit and said, ” you read the whole Quran several years in a row doing Ramadan, you prayed 5 times a day talking to me and sharing what was on your mind, you took to heart what was revealed to you in the teachings you were reading. Do you remember, it is how I brought you to back to know my son, Jesus. This time I want you to read the Bible from beginning to end, just as committed. As for your fast it will be on Only healthy foods 24 hrs a day. No yeast, as close as possible no salt, very little sugar and Yes, I want you to Pray and talk to me. I want you to get out of Your way & really listen for what I have to reveal. I have blessed you with a daughter who is an Organic cook, she will help you. I have blessed you with the job to support you and have reduced your stress considerably. This is your time to begin a new journey in life, your time is now meant to be spent a lot more with Me and the family of God. We love you, will heal you, & life will begin anew. ” Of course, I said, ” Yes, Lord” and felt the push to ask another of my friends to join me. I knew from our conversations, She too had been hearing that call and of course she accepted with bells on. It is a blessing when we talk once a week and share a little of our experiences and what is being revealed. One thing that we both have seen is Just how Blessed we are. Not to mention, how we really need to check ourselves when we even think of grumbling or complaining. We are pretty darn spoiled even in the tough times compared to what the Israelites went through.Read the Old Testament and I think you will get the picture too. It was during this reading I realized and heard the Spirit say, ” Do you realize, Like the Israelites, how much mercy I have given you, how much I Love you, and it is “I your God”, who has brought you out of your Time in the Wilderness, Home to the Land of Milk and Honey; I who brought you here so many years ago” That really tapped my door in many ways. It washed all over me, as I realized I too had behaved many times like the Israelites – grumbling and complaining because He wasn’t ALWAYS making things easy breezy. Or asking, ” why did you bring me back here to this wilderness, there is so much pain connected here ?” When the fact is He didn’t bring me to the wilderness and pain, I did. He just let me go and then taught me some serious lessons which have resulted in His Promise of “Romans 8: 28: And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” And Praise GOD all things did work together and for my Good with icing on the cake of Angels who were there to help and care for me the whole time I was floundering in the wilderness. Angels who are still and always will be my friends full of Love. Angels from all walks of life, going thru all types of journeys themselves, Angels of all ages and faiths. I have learned a lot about Love, Mercy, Forgiveness, about how we have no right to be Judgmental and how important it is we All learn to Love one another and understand one another. I have learned God does work in funny ways sometimes (literally Funny) and that being closed minded and hard of heart not only hurts others but, Really hurts you most of all. Beautiful blessings can be missed by being a closed minded hard head and not spending time with God. By not being obedient when He is trying to tell ya somethin’. But, Praise God He never leaves me in the wilderness all alone, Yes, I am blessed with many wonderful friends of all races, religions, and ages who are always there ready to walk with me and remind me of where I really need to go. I am SOOO thankful God keeps reminding me of How much He Loves me, Loves All His children, and how I am part of ” the I AM” created in the image of Him…the very image of Love. I am thankful He guides me to look in the mirror and see, That it is only when I pull away or disobey that things get hinky and my hairs turn Grey.
So my challenge this post is:
If you haven’t done a fast either in a very long time or maybe never done a fast at all, take the time to give it a try – Really would it be so bad to give God & yourself some Love…some quality time in His Word and in fasting and prayer?
Think about it…this challenge will only work to your good. Smile
Peace and Much Love – talk to you soon.

Please Read and please indulge me in this is a long post. I pray it reveals a message that will not only set me Free but, others as well. This past week I had a call from a dear friend who was/ IS in deep distress. You see this family came to America with eyes of Hope and a better future for their children. And until recently their experiences here, have overall, been the life of living the American dream. They have embraced what America is founded on: The right to free speech, to believe and practice your beliefs, the opportunities of employment and a education, that if you work hard and apply yourself you Can have a nice home and environment to raise your family. They have lived making good choices, Praising God , & praying they are setting an example to follow with their children. And they ARE the image of what America has to offer IF you strive for, embrace it and take full advantage of ” all it has to offer.” Over the years I had mentioned to them, don’t let the ways and the acquiring of stuff deceive you or your children. Careful not to spoil them & careful who they hang with. Trust me, don’t let it be that you have to learn the hard way like me. I let them know I love America too and all the possibilities it has to offer but, we can not put on blinders as to the flaws and negative possibilities it has to offer as well. Like the temptations of those in the world Not walking a Godly path and the misleading media information our children are exposed to daily. Because their chlldren haven’t indulged in activities outside of a walk with God ” except in little things” I think they thought ” we made it thru the teens and now we are in the clear”  Wrong. They just found out their oldest son has turned out to be a late bloomer & has now decided: ” I think I want to test and try some “American” ways that “all my friends are doing.” You see he has a physical disability that affects his confidence and in his wanting to be more accepted and not so “different”  he thought this choice would help him to fit in?

Has it popped into your head his choice? Yep, Marijuana. America’s old/new ” It’s OK habit.” Now this young man in his 20’s who WAS accepted into a good college, making good grades, obtained a job with High potential of creating a Bright future may be loosing it ALL due to his Choice of smoking pot.  Now those of you who know me, Know I am Not a Marijuana basher and do feel it has it’s medicinal purposes for sure. Heck until this phone call had my head in the sand somewhat. But, here is the TRUTH that I found from the conversation I had with this young man’s Dad; I made the same choice as his son back in the early 70’s and the consequences of my choices Did impact my life in very negative ways. Like I was to busy “having fun” and kickin’ it so I didn’t have the desire to study and get a good education even though I Am an intelligent woman. Back in the day, I even smoked around my young daughter and as she grew up it created a rift between us that I STILL feel from her. Even though I stopped smoking ” in her presence” many years ago. You see she was embarrassed and wanted a Mom who was a Mom not a Mom who was cool. Notice I said ” in her presence” — Yep, even though I knew she hated it I didn’t quit entirely, taking the attitude ” it is my choice, I am working and working hard to provide and at least I am not doing hard drugs (anymore), plus I need to relax..I don’t drink and Pot is not as harmful as alcohol ” Excuses…lots of excuses I convinced myself of just so I could escape occasionally. Here was another excuse: I work hard and my Life has been hard..I have many days of depression and PTSD from the past – Marijuana helps me relax and have some laughter..it is not hurting me”   Knowing within: that is a Lie.  It has hurt me & my daughters relationship. Praise God we have healed a lot about my choices but, I know my choices affected their Lives. When you have children it should Never Be: “It’s my Life and choices or All about Me”  You see even though I had a lot of energy and I have always worked hard, I didn’t have the drive and couldn’t stay focused enough to gain a better education. And that did hurt my chances when some doors of opportunity opened in my life. I didn’t qualify for the position or a couple of times I turned them down because I couldn’t pass the drug test. Sound familiar?  Now, as I say it out loud, it sounds plain Dumb!  Now guess what that hurt: Me and  my family and the ability to provide a better home and more Time with them because if I had just given up the Pot I wouldn’t have had to work 2 jobs ALL of their lives.  Did we make the best of life? YES. Did God provide for us in spite of my dumb choices? YES!  Praise God for Protecting us and before it was way to late and I ruined my life completely God brought me to my senses keeping me from going to far down the road of “trouble” . Even though I didn’t continue to smoke daily, I have had to work twice as hard and struggled many times in areas I shouldn’t have. To be perfectly honest, My choices brought sacrifices that only created depression and shame within.  And what result do you think that has had in my Life, in my relationships, especially my relationship with God? Funny thing: This family was one of the loving friends He sent my way to aid in my getting off the road of “enslaved to bad habits”and on to moving forward on a better Journey in my Life. Their example of Grace and Love has played a BIG part in leading me toward a Road to a closer relationship with the family of God & the Knowing ” I Can Be all God created me to BE” and that is Not someone escaping into the high of marijuana. Cause as those of you who smoke or (smoked) Know it is not the typical that when you smoke it is ” within moderation” anymore than those who drink stay within moderation. And just like alcohol when done in “excess” it has a negative effect creating lack of concentration, forgetfulness, down right laziness, and a general attitude of “whatever”  For years I kept my ole hippie attitude about “recreational smoking” of Marijuana ” It isn’t hurting me and besides I have learned to smoke in moderation so,       I am ok” (more excuses) And for years it has in a multitude of ways affected my future. Here is another: Years ago, I met a really good man, a Dr. , a businessman driven and very responsible who showed me nothing but, love. But, he didn’t indulge in my lifestyle and couldn’t take chances with Me that could destroy his reputation and I knew it ! So, instead of me getting my Life together and joining him in being responsible, I left him knowing there was my Angel and way out of my journey of struggles. Not to mention, I was leaving what I wanted and needed most in Life…LOVE.  Now, the bigges point of this post: Even though I am not smoking now, until the call from my friend, I was still struggling with my view as far as marijuana. I don’t smoke anymore but, the reason is I Don’t want to risk loosing my Job not because I was solid in my conviction about whether it should or should not be legal. You see I Still have to work 2 jobs but, Praise God they are 2 GOOD jobs and like most GOOD jobs these days they reserve the right to drug test. Now at almost 60! I am Not willing to take the chance of loosing my Blessings and I finally see the consequences and damage my choice of “pro recreational” marijuana had in my life. I still believe for medicinal purposes there is a purpose. I have friends that have endured cancer and it is a Fact it helps the nausea during their treatments, it is a fact it aids with glaucoma. But, should it be allowed for the “abuse” of recreational smoking? The Truth is No.  The truth is the effects of getting high daily and smoking “kick ass” weed can stunt your Life’s growth, it can and Does affect your relationships with those you Love, and can cause just as much or More Pain than the momentary laughter you gain in your High. I can testify my “natural high” I obtain in my walk with God beats the heck out of the “momentary high” of marijuana. So, take it from me, an ole hippie who would have sworn ” I will smoke till I die” – it is NOT a road to freedom but, in reality is a stumbling block that can and Will, “when used recreationally”, hold you in bondage from all that God wants to give you and wants you to Be.

I love you all and pray this message, like my friends phone call did me, will open your eyes to see and ears to hear and for many, like it has me, “Set you Free”

Morning Everyone!

Hope you are having a pleasant Memorial Day Weekend. 

Keeping with the title I will keep this simple. This morning the Holy Spirit tapped me saying ” Going forward in your Walk remember to Grow as One in Spirit with Me, you must also walk in remembrance of “the simple things”  Then enlightenment of what some of those things are flooded my mind and heart. It’s those little things that pop up in conversation, like condoning sex without commitment, drunken nights out and saying, ” well, that is your choice”, gossiping, passing judgment, or complaining instead of praising all the blessings that come across each and every day! Or just keeping that juicy gossip to yourself…there is almost Always a deeper reason for why someone is doing the things they do that are not in a journey with Jesus. And most of all Not letting God’s Love shine through you in All you do.

Well, that it is for me…I pray this post reveals and enlightens you today too.  Not only will it brighten others day for us to remember, ” the simple things on our day to day but, it Will brighten and change your Life today and each day forward.

Peace and Blessings!

Just for clarity..Often it is a Norm to be a Living Sacrifice to family, friends, and our Neighbors…it is part of who we are to be Loving, giving, and sacrifice for others…then there are those times when we don’t want to or feel it is deserved toward someone for us to sacrifice but, that still small voice is telling us too – so strongly we have no inner peace in the matter..

It is these times His Word in Romans speaks to us calling us to walk in His Will not ours casting our Will aside and become a          “Willing” Living Sacrifice.

Morning Everyone!  Like many of you there are times I am just jumpin’ busy! I was asking my Lord “What should today’s post be?  There are no words of wisdom rising in my heart nor my mind.”  This was the case until moments ago when I heard, ” Share my Word, you’ve been planting the seeds of it for the last couple of days with your Words.” Then clear as a bell He showed me what verses in His Word to share with you today. May His Word be planted within you and Grow in a mighty way.

Romans Chapter 12: I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

(may we walk as Yeshua in Humble Service )- ³ For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. ⁴ For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, ⁵ so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. ⁶ We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your^[a] faith; ⁷ if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; ⁸ if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,^[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.  (May we walk revealing Love in Action) ⁹ Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. ¹⁰ Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. ¹¹ Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. ¹² Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. ¹³ Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.     ¹⁴ Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵ Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. ¹⁶ Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.^[c] Do not be conceited.                ¹⁷ Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. ¹⁸ If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹ Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”^[d] says the Lord. ²⁰ On the contrary:  “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”^[e]

²¹ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Have Peace, Love, and Faith in Knowing His Word is True and Works when you Work it.

As many of us celebrate the Sacrifice of our Lord, Yeshua (Jesus) we forgot all the Power & Promise this holds for US.

Joel had an awesome reminder message this morning ( #575 You have Resurrection Power http://www.joelosteen.com/Pages/VideoStreaming.aspx )

This message is filled with what came AFTER the death on the cross. How Jesus Rose again from the grave and reminded his disciples of the Purpose of His Sacrifice telling them to go out and Preach/Teach The Way of Love and the Power His Sacrifice offers to All mankind who Choose to have a Personal Relationship with Him and allow His Spirit to join our spirit becoming One in the walk of Love. I highly recommend your taking the time to view this message. God calls us to Uplift and Give to our Neighbor, this is a message that surely fulfills that calling of His Word.

Yesterday I attend a Life Celebration of a dear Woman who Love the Lord, Believed and Trusted in His Promises. The service was so filled with those touched by her Love. You could see the Power of Love and it’s abundant Harvest of Life so clearly as those who were touched by her Walk of Love filled the building so full it couldn’t hold all the attendees. Then blessing upon Blessing continued as her service began. God used her grandson to touch the hearts of all those in attendance speaking of all the loving attributes of his grandmother, while at the same time blending in the verses that called her and call us to walk in that same Love. It is and was in that moment very clear that ” In this house (her walk of Love and within her family), we will serve the Lord”  It was a breath of fresh air, a wonderful reminder of how Life & Love between family & friends creates the surroundings of Comfort, Peace, and Joy even upon Death.  The seeds she planted while walking with us, just like Jesus planted, are seeds of the Power of Love. Seeds that Prove        “We can Fight the Good Fight thru Faith, We Can Walk in His Love and impact the Lives of those around us, We Do have Choices and those Choices Do Create the next step in our Journey on this Earth.”  Billie Sue was an inspiration to Me and All those lined up out the door who came to Honor the Life she Lived. Today, on Resurrection Sunday, this is my Prayer:  That I will allow the seeds planted by Jesus and by this inspirational woman, Billie Sue, to grow and bear abundant harvest that I too will have God smiling and saying, “job well done” Because I KNOW that was what God was saying to Billie as she joined him in spiritual realms of the heavens. I pray I may move forward embracing the Life of Love that Jesus sacrificed His Life for. That I walk daily as a woman who Loves Life and all it has to offer. I pray that like Billie sure daily I am reminded to plant good seed in everyone around me. I pray those seeds continue to grow and provide abundant harvest in each and everyone of us. I pray we allow our memories to come forth and honor her Life by paying forward those seeds – those seeds of Love. I pray like Joel says that all those in attendance yesterday were like me, Resurrected to Life by the Love that flowed in and thru Billie Sue and the Word presented at her Celebration of Life.

Happy Easter everyone.

Romans 12:2 “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”

This week I had more than one conversation about ” feelings” & the effects of those “feelings”  Now feelings are a funny thing & should Never have control of your Life. They are like the waves of the ocean and can lift you up or drag you down to the depths of a bummer day. They can move you forward to BE all you Can Be, riding the perfect wave; or Drag you down to be bound in darkness & the Lies of Satan.  Like the Lie that you just can’t go on or that you are a Victim or addicted and will be all of your days. Well, I am here to tell you those are Lies! I know by experience – not just talk. Those Lies can only come true if you Allow your Feelings to continually come forth into “Words” said within you and without; which in turn Will take control your mind manifesting themselves into a Truth for you. Not that they are the Truth, only that they will be in that moment because you have convinced yourself they are. You see your Mind thrives on what you Feed it, the watering of the seeds of your heart. What is your heart set on?

Just as you can water seeds of destruction, You DO have the same ability to cultivate and water the good seeds within “transforming” those Lies by the renewing of Your Mind thru the Word and Promises of Jesus. The same way you continually speak Death to your Soul you can speak Life and Light to your Soul. In this YOU take back control of your “feelings” and in turn your Mind will Be transformed growing stronger daily in the Truth & Light of Love, Grace, Mercy, Compassion, and the list goes on. The key to unlocking the chains that bind you and your transformation is found in your Free Will Choice.  What you ALLOW your mind to focus on and absorb. Pay attention to what you are listening to, talking about, watching on TV, & reading. What do you go to bed focused on? The good things of the day or the bummers that may have happened?  Is your mind in this moment or stuck in the Past? You can not change the Past but, You can Change this moment and the Future. It takes some discipline, some looking at things without and within. It takes an open heart and the Willingness and Heart’s Desire to want to be washed clean and transformed. Life and Death ARE in the power of the tongue. Careful who you hang with constantly. Careful what You Allow to fill your heart, mind, and especially what proceeds from your mouth. Instead of caving into negativities in life and we all have them sometimes, kick them to the curb and seek the Blessings that are all around us. Seek Good things and Good people. Seek those equally yoked that you might walk as ONE in The Way of seeking to Live and walk the Life of Love and Light on Earth as it is in Heaven. WAY more Doors open in Life when you Seek His Promises, look for the possibilities, & have a Mind that is open to Try new Good things. Last but not least, most important in fact: Remember to be Thankful each day for ALL the Good things God does provide and sends your way. It is Not up to Him whether you Choose to take hold of all His promises and provisions. It is Your Choice and it begins in your Heart, Mind, & “feelings”.

A dear friend and I are in the process of seeking in His Word His promises on our lives. Join us:  Take 15 mins a day (or more should you choose) & seek God and His promises. Then Choose to have Faith and Believe in those promises and watch your days begin to change with the renewing of your Mind.  I found a a good place to start is in Ephesians.

Enjoy and know I am praying you all Choose Good Things each and every day as you rise.  In our doing so, we CAN make Change!

Peace! 

May these verses aid in the renewal of your mind & the minds of those around you.

Hebrews 10:22-24  let us draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. 23Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful; 24 and let us consider how to stimulate one another to love and good deeds.

Luke 9:29 And as He prayed the fashion of his countenance was altered and his raiment was white and glistening. 

Verse 49-50 And John said, Master, we saw one casting out devils in Thy name and we forbad him because he followeth not with us. And Yashua (Jesus) said unto him, ” Forbid him Not for he that is not against us is For us.”

In previous verses Yashua  (Jesus) was frustrated with his disciples as they were unable to cast out an unclean spirit out of a man’s son telling them ” O faithless and perverse generation how long shall I be with you and suffer you”  He had been with them teaching and walking by Example so they could See how the Word & Prayer works when you work it. Yet they Still were unable to cast out the demon from this man’s son. WHY? a lack of Faith in the Father’s Word. Jesus consistently by example shows all those in his presence the keys are simple: Go to the Father and Family of God in Prayer, Seek Him and His Word, Believe & you Will Receive His promises & the power to do great things. It was Jesus total Faith &Trusting the Father, His going to the Father in Prayer & believing in His guidance from those sent to show Him the Way that brought transfiguration and power in His walk as a Man here on Earth. Have you ever earnestly sought God and chosen to Walk the walk of Jesus?  If so, I am sure you have noticed a change of your countenance as well. Possibly even had people say to YOU, ” What are you doing these days, You are glowing. I feel such great good energy from you, thanks for lifting up my day”  Walking in Love and a life of serving one another and Not judging one another or the path God had shown them to walk, Will bring transfiguration to your Life and the Lives of those you encounter. The only caution I have is;  when you do seek God with all your heart and Yeshua (Jesus) & the Holy Spirit join you in your walk, some will be jealous and may just try to drag you back down the lane of ” pain and misery”  You know what they say, “misery loves company”  DON’T Do It !  Instead, pray for them, seek God’s wisdom, and move on into what He has for You – leaving them to Him. If someone is not willing to be healed, have ears to hear, or eyes to see you must accept they have Free Will Choice too and all you can do is accept the things you can not change and continue on in your glowing countenance – that of who You are, a son/daughter of God Loved and Loving.  Don’t you be the one walking in a negative ‘Tude forbidding your family/neighbors just because they don’t do things just like you do. Remember the words, ” he that is For us is not against us”. Be kind and enjoy their countenance you just might learn something. Smile.  It is not ours to determine The Way God has to get anyone where he wants them to be. In other words, “not your worry or concern..it is God’s” You just Love those that are for you and not against you and appreciate that they are for you & not against you. Cause I am sure you know by now there are and will be plenty “against” you just because you LOVE God and it is your hearts desire to walk in the Blessings, Love, Mercy, and Glory of our Lord. How silly is it for you to add to those against you by being judgmental  & against those who are Not against you. Who are actually on the same page just getting there down a different avenue.   Do ya feel me?

Well, that is all I have to say today… may you have ears to hear and eyes to see the wisdom in the Word of God.

Shalom. (Peace be with you)

Some unexpected things have transpired in my life lately that really made me realize ” the Choice is Yours (Mine) PERIOD!. I got one of those picture posts with sayings recently that said:  Everything you do is based on the Choices you make (sounds just like me right!) then it goes on to say, “It’s not your parents, your past relationships your job, the economy, the weather, an argument, or your age that is to blame. You and only you are responsible for every decision and choice you make. PERIOD.”  That really got me thinkin’. Now we could disagree with a few of these or even all actually, like the weather – if you suffer from S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder)  like I do, it is easy to say, “the weather is to blame.” But, on the flip side of the coin I can make choices to live where I won’t suffer from it..like the finest city in America, San Diego, CA! And Praise God He doesn’t put more on us than we can bear and has opened those very doors for me to return home that I might regain “Me” leaving S.A.D. behind me.  Or how about the economy. We don’t have total control over job options in our area but, again if you really want a job and to provide for you and yours you do have the Choice of going where the work is or how about tap the Gifts God gave you and be creative. Check to see what business you could start of your own. Housekeeping, personal services, gardening, photography, senior/child care, and the list of possibilities goes on…IF you are willing to get out there (including do some volunteer work so you can meet those in your community) and do what is necessary to build your business doors will open. How about an argument that really rocks your world, for a minute you will blame the argument and the person involved but, truth is it takes 2 to argue. Just because someone is determined to push your buttons doesn’t mean you have to allow that. You Can walk away and keep a safe but, still be kind distance. And don’t forget to look at, “Yourself..are you any part of what created that? If not, Don’t fall into the trap of “being sucked into whatever it is within another that wants to live in the life of misery loves company” I got caught up in that recently and not only did I feel like crap for loosing God’s loving spirit, I felt awful that I had let God and Myself down by becoming someone I am Not..an angry argumentative person. So I had a chat with Jesus and from here on out, I will be practicing & keeping in my remembrance ” Life and Death are in the Power of the Tongue & If you can’t say something nice don’t say anything at all” 
My choice may leave me silent often (an unusual trait for me) but, that is better than letting your Joy & the loving Spirit within be stolen by a negative spirit of another. It is true, “we must accept the things we cannot change” And unfortunately even though we try, we can’t change another. They must Choose just like we do what lifestyle they want to walk. Whether that is a dark hurting road or a life lifting road healing you all along the way. Having wandered off to the Left for a time, God sent angels to point me back to the Right road for Me. So, once again Praise God, I CHOOSE the Life Lifting road & made a Hard Right which is getting Me back on track down the road to My Life.
Last but not least, of which I am also guilty, is letting myself fall into a place of not taking good care of myself physically. My recent trip to Cali and being around my youngest daughter, who chooses to live a healthy lifestyle, reminded me I FEEL much better & can Love others best when I LOVE myself which means getting back on board in that healthy lifestyle living. And of course once I had answered His knock and opened the door, God sent something my way to aid in that kick off too. The Today show challenge “30 days to a Better You” & Joyce Meyer ” 30 days in the Word” Together these will take you down the road to a healthy lifestyle both inside and Out. So won’t you join me? The CHOICE is YOURS. PERIOD.

Funny thing about a loss of a loved one. Every situation is different. Your grieving time and emotions can and will be different with each loss. I thought I had grieved the death of my Mother in my way but, I hadn’t really at all. Not until I came away from all the responsibilities and I have to do this, that, and the other. I was so on go in 2013 with trying to take care of my parents, move them into Assisted living, & then before the year was over, I lost my Mom. No time for grieving then. My sister and I put it in overdrive trying to get everything done and settled surrounding her death. I didn’t realize I wasn’t allowing myself to grieve. Once I stepped away and went home to Cali around my friends and family I felt my walls come down & now it seems I can’t even mention or think of my Mom without crying. Today, I was blessed with one of God’s angels who also had a recent loss and she was saying how you hold yourself all together and for each person it is so different when they finally “let go”. I hadn’t thought of it really in that way. But, it totally makes sense and now I understand this is my time of grieving all that was lost with my Mom. I also realize how much I learned and grew in the short time we did have together and I am thankful. I was not close with my parents growing up and we missed a lot of sharing in our lives, I know that is part of the grieving tears too. We did try but, our lifestyle choices more than not kept us pretty darn far apart.       But, I must say I am Very thankful (Blessed) for the time we did have, for all the wisdom she shared even when she didn’t know she was & I know she is thankful too. I grieve for her and all she missed in her life but, Now I know she is Free, living a witty life with family and friends, and smiling daily Finally. And Today I am smiling with her. So, if any of you have lost a loved one I pray you know God is with you, as He is, has been, and always will be with me. I also pray that you know, This too Shall Pass and once the tears have ended our lives are meant to go on. Meant to go on living out our purpose all the while knowing we will see them again.

Peace and Love to all